Six days later

Hola amigos!

And that's my complete spanish vocabulary. I haven't written in six days now, it does have a lot to do with the fact that I am bipolar (omg, there she goes again...), but it is a major problem and sometimes I just don't feel that good. I'm also under a lot of stress, which is partially my own fault because I constantly put myself under a lot of pressure to do the best I can and be the best version of myself. Try to achieve as much as possible as fast as possible, and sometimes that fails. I'm 24 and I'm still learning how to do life and sometimes I will mess up. (This just turned into a one-man-pep-talk).
There will be no writing lesson today or in the near couple of days I think, I will try to write more because I've been pretty bad at it these past couple of weeks now, which I apologize for, it's just been a lot. Like, a lot. And I'm honestly just trying to get through it.

I just sat down with my story and I realized what's been messing up my writing - I don't have an ending. Like, okay, the protagonist will meet someone who is not the best fit for her, and then she'll return to her roots to find someone who's a better fit for her, although she doesn't believe it at first. This will be the first book, or the first big chapter, so I've got that covered. Then, chapter two, the person she thought was the good guy takes a turn for the even worse and together she and her hubby will take him down. But then, there's a bigger threat (or supposedly, so far), which I have some ideas about, and then... My ideas stop. I have everything mapped out and then there's just this massive blank space that I can't seem to fill, but I also don't want to start writing since I don't know when or how it's all gonna end. What if I need to write some clues, mention something or add something for it all to make sense and I just missed that opportunity? No, I should start writing and when I know the end, I'll write that too. It's time to get serious and actually start to write.

I love you guys and I love this blog, so please have patience with me because this is just a rough patch and we'll get through it. This blog has helped me deal with my emotions and feelings and given me a place to vent so I can't remove it, it's out of the question.

Gnight amigos ❤️

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