2017 > 10

Nah, this was the first time.

Hey guys!
I've missed you so, so, so much these past days and there's been so much going on and I just haven't had the time to write. For those of you who don't know (which most likely is 95% of you), I have seven siblings. One biological, same parents, two half siblings who I share the same dad with, and four stepsiblings, also on my dad's side.
These past eleven days I've spent sick, I've traveled to my dad and I was a bridesmaid at my oldest sister's wedding. It was completely improvised, I didn't know it until the evening before and I was very, very nervous. Another one of my sisters were supposed to be the bridesmaid but due to circumstances she didn't show up so I took her role instead. It was fun, I guess. I don't really like people, or standing up, or standing up in front of people, but it was such a small thing to do to make my sister's wedding move along as planned.

Besides the wedding, I spent the majority of time there with my brother Eddie, who's older than me and actually knows how to drive, unlike me, so we had fun and explored the woods and went ghost hunting at night. I love scary stories, I do believe in ghosts and the paranormal and all that, but I don't like the idea of provoking said beings. But it was fun, we saw a dog, a hare and a bunch of deer. And an abandoned church which was scary as hell.
During the wedding party we left early because it was loud as fuck, there were games and drunk people everywhere and it was just a no from me.

We went back to my dad's place, we played monopoly, watched a couple of scary movies and went to sleep.

Now, there's some things that I'd love to address on this blog but I can't because it has my real name on it. Don't get me wrong, I love my name, but I'm the only one with this name so I'm not really private or anonymous with it which means that things I say can easily be traced back to me. As you guys might know, there's been a pretty big, sad situation concerning my youngest sibling and it's been hard on the whole family, but depending on how the trial that's coming up soon goes, I might be able to write about it, which I desperately need.

I've also just gotten done with Stranger Things season 2, which was fucking amazing. If you haven't seen it then I highly suggest you do. Now you know what I've been up to and why I've been away, so I'm back home and back at my writing and Netflixing. See you guys soon!
 

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We all try, right?

Thought I'd share a gem I found a while back, because why not. Making History is a TV series made up of nine episodes, and was released 2017. It's about Dan, who inherits a time machine from his father, and who frequently goes back in time to visit his girlfriend Deb. Dan finds out that the American revolution never happens, and gets help from history professor Chris to start the American revolution, and then it all goes south. Very short summary but that's basically all you need to know before watching it.
I personally loved it, but they weren't renewed for another season unfortunately. Still worth watching! You can find the trailer for the show here.

The episodes are about 20 minutes long, and the show is startting Adam Pally, Leighton Meester and Yassir Lester. You can easily find it online, but I'm not gonna post any links to it because I'm pretty sure that would be illegal.

Have fun! ❤️

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Etiketter: series, tv, show, fun, tip, review

I heard that's what they call it. This weekend has been filled, I'm so tired, I have a headache and I feel like crying.

So saturday I was supposed to babysit my youngest sister when my dad and my older sister went to Germany, so they drove her down to me and I picked her up at 6 a.m., which is usually when I go to bed. She weren't tired at all, but I was so after like three hours I finally got her to sleep for like an hour, which is about as much sleep as I got. We woke up, ate, then went to the closest mall to us, which is like a little more than an hour by bus, and that distance with an 11 year old with too much energy isn't a thing that I think people should seek out and do. If you can, avoid it.
We got to Toys'R'Us where she stood for like 25 minutes choosing between three toy horses, and we ended up leaving with two of them (yes, I bribed her so that we could leave, don't judge).
We walked through the mall looking for food, but apparently everybody goes shopping on saturdays so every place we went to was full. We decided to eat when we got back to town instead, we just had one more stop before leaving. Apparently, we now celebrate Halloween like 15 days before Halloween in Sweden because the whole mall had a Halloween theme and there were candy and competitions and people dressed out as ghosts and zombies and shit, and I don't care for that at all. I love horror, but I absolutely hate dressed up people for Halloween. I don't like it when they jump out and scare me, and don't like seeing their faces, I don't like a trail of fake blood on the floor. No, just no. Stop it.
Anyways, we stood in line for 35 minutes for my sister to get a spider on her cheek, with face paint obviously. 35 minutes is acceptable, but this was literally the worst face paint job I've ever seen. You could barely see that it was supposed to be a web and a spider, but, it was free so I'm fine with it.

We came back to Helsingborg, had some food and then went to visit my mom, who were helping a very close family friend move. There were so much to do, so when my dad finally picked up my sister I decided to stay behind and help with the move. We got that shit done, it took forever, but we did it. We decided to get to the basement the day after, so we went home, ate and then went to bed.

Sunday comes around, we get up and drives to our friend and the basement is packed. Like roof-filled. It took a long time, we drove a couple of rounds to move the stuff, and then we drove back to where our friend lives right now which is roughly an hour away, got done there and then an hour back, and we were home pretty late, again.

To summarize this; my weekend has been filled, I'm tired, my body is hurting, and I'm so happy to be done with it!
Also, picture of the friends dog who I got to cuddle with! Feel asleep in my hand, and I fell freaking in love with him.

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Hey guys!

So one struggle when it comes to writing that I struggle with, and I know a lot of other people do as well, is that damn blank paper in front of us. Not life, not "where is this novel going to go?", "what's the next chapter?" Simply, paper. And I'm writing this because I just realized it today. When it comes to writing, most people nowadays do it on a computer, some still do it on a typewriter and some still use pen and paper. I start out with pen and paper, then when I have somewhat of an idea I rewrite it on my computer, print that out and rearrange it, re-write it on paper then add it to my computer, because why make it easy?

And I realized that it got so much easier for me to write when the blank paper in front of me wasn't white. Obviously white paper is what we almost always buy, it's the original, it's the basic, it's the typical. But is it the best for your creative writing? I'm pretty sure it's not because a blank, white paper is so.. Empty, there's nothing at all to it, it's just staring back at you like it's challenging you to do something, whatever, with it but it just looks so freaking empty. And I can't handle that. SO, I started to write on lightly pink paper instead and that actually helped a lot more than I'd like to admit. It's not empty anymore, it contains somthing and it's not challenging me in a way that white paper do.

So my *I'm a special snowflake who can't handle white paper* tip today is that if you're writing with pen and paper and you're very much stuck, switch it up to another color of the paper and see if that helps. It's such a simple thing to do, and suddenly it doesn't look that empty anymore.

And this whole emptiness takes us from one point to another; I want to apologize for being so lazy when it comes to writing here, I've given up on most tips and things that I've wanted to share and I don't think that's fair to you guys so if you decide that this lazy blog isn't for you then I totally understand. But at the same time, I am a pretty decent person who have up's and down's and I'm just in a shitty point in my life right now and it affects me a lot.
If you don't suffer from any mental illness (first of all, I'm genuinely happy for you, life can be bad either way but you've got something going for you), especially depression, when you feel bad you shy away from people because you don't want to constantly remind people that "look at me, I always feel bad and you're gonna get nothing but a bad time hanging out with me."And I'm saying it like this because that's how it feels. When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine. And then they ask how I really am, and I say I feel like shit. And if someone keeps asking me that whenever we talk or hang out, I feel like a burden because I can't contribute with anything good. I can't say "Hey, I'm great thanks for asking, do you wanna hang out and do something fun?" And I want to be that fun person, but at the moment I'm not. And it's very common to feel guilty, to feel like a burden and to feel like you don't deserve intimacy or friendship when you feel down or depressed because you feel like you're constantly weighing down other people. How can I deserve something good, if all I do is give something bad?
This post turned out way sadder than I thought it would, I'm so sorry, but I just want to give you guys a reason for me being a lazy piece of shit. I'm not lazy, I just don't want the only thing I write about is me feeling depressed or sad.

So moving on! Todays picture is actually from my notebook, where all my ideas are right now, and the color of the paper is pink and I feel really fucking good about that. And I am extraordinary.

I love you guys, I love this blog and I love you mom.
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Hej allihopa!

That's "hey everybody" in Swedish, I wanted to spice it up a bit, so I'm using the language of the pale meatballs that doesn't taste anything.

I've promised a review of the movie The Boy, which is a movie that came out in 2016.
Simply put; Greta (played by Lauren Cohan), escapes her life and abusive boyfriend in the US, by taking a job as a nanny in the UK. She shows up at this massive house with no idea what the job is gonna be like, and finds out that the boy she's gonna take care of is... A doll. There's strict rules for taking care of the doll, and her life with the doll changes when she decides to stop following the rules.
You can find the youtube-trailer and the possibility to "rent" the movie here, which is a great way to escape the comment section spoilers, and then the option to watch the movie through youtube here (you have to pay for it though), or if you have Netflix you can watch it there.
The movie is 1 h and 38 minutes and it's classified as mystery/thriller.

I recommend watching it at least once since it puts a bit of a spinn or twist on the ordinary thriller-movies.

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Etiketter: fun, movie, review, scary, thriller, mystery, tip

Nope, not heaven. That we know of.

Hey guys!

So today I though I'd share a reddit post that I love. And by love, I mean LOVE. You guys know that writing, reading, listening and watching horror is my life (and it's probably also why I'm messed up), so when my brother found this post some year ago, I was all aboard the YES-train, (because a nope-train is a thing, just play along people).

It's posted in the subreddit r/nosleep, which is a sub for writers/victims to tell their 'true' scary story. The subs description is "NoSleep is a place for authors to share their original horror stories. For a more detailed explanation of the subreddit, click here.
Suspension of disbelief is key here. Everything is true here, even if it's not. Don't be the jerk in the movie theater hee-hawing because monkeys don't fly."
This specific post got a lot of positive feedback, so I just want to share this one here so that if you haven't read it, here it is! Also; obviously this isn't my post, I don't take any credit for it, I'm just sharing it.

It's titled I'm a Search and Rescue Officer for the US Forest Service, I have some stories to tell, it has over 14k likes, and it's about a (like the title said) a Search and Rescue Officer sharing some of the stories he/she heard on the job, or that the person has experienced on their own. It's pretty intense and not for the faint-hearted.

You can find the first out of eight posts here, and then at the bottom of the post there's links to the continuing posts.
If you'd rather listen to the story, you can find it here on youtube by Corpse Husband.

Listen, read, and enjoy.
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Etiketter: scary

Hey guys!

We just got home after a long pokémon round around the beach and Helsingborg; me and my brother both play and this is a great way to hang out and annoy other people who doesn't like pokémon. Anyways, we had fun, got some new balls and talked to some other players. If you're not playing I highly suggest trying it!

So right now you might be wondering "what the frick is going on with this background?", and that's a completely valid question! I've changed it maybe four times now these past days because it's fall and I wanted to (pumpkin)spice it up a bit! Is the final product okay? I think so! Will I change it again before Christmas? Probably.
The background is from Pexels and you can find the picture here. Pexels is an amazing site that offers free pictures that you can use for personal or commercial use without restrictions, and if you love their service you can donate money to either the site, or the photographer!

I've been writing a lot lately which feels great, but I also feel incredibly fragile. Like my ego could not take any backlash or negative feedback right now, because I'm "in the zone" and I feel like just about anything could mess me up and make me change the story. Luckily, I'm outlined maybe the first 15 pages now, which is gonna need a lot of editing obviously, but it feels amazing. I've decided to let mom read it soon to get some (hopefully positive) feedback.

Other than this, I just finished watching The Boy (2016) and I thought about doing a quick review of it here, hopefully within a week. You can find the trailer here, so that I won't spoil the movie for you later!

I love you guys, you keep me sane.
And I love you mom.
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Welcome!

I'm a 24 year old woman born and living in Helsingborg, Sweden.
On this blog I focus a lot writing; writing my stories, helping you write your stories as well as some book-/movie reviews that I feel fit in here. Other than literature, I also write about my personal life, my opinions on news and pictures of my dog.
As someone struggling with Bipolar Disorder type 2, I also post about mental health.

I would describe myself as too honest, complains a lot, and write long posts.

If you wanna know more, send me a message or follow me on instagram.

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